That’s how I am, I always have and excuse. Especially if someone invites me to things, I usually say “I’ll think about it!” – but I always end up having to cuddle or wash my imaginary hamster.
I don’t know why, because it hasn’t always been like this. I used to be out there in the world, hanging out with other humans.
Now, it’s just me, my fiancé and the imaginary hamster.
Somehow I feel that it has something to do with that I feel like I need to have an excuse instead of saying “you know what, I don’t feel like hanging out”<- or what ever the case might be. Or the fact that some people just can’t except if you say “today is not good for me”, they need to know why! Why?!?! Why?!?!?!?!?!??!
Somethings are actually personal, so if I don’t want to tell you WHY! I don’t have to, now do I!
Why is the reason for all my excuses? I have social phobia (and general anxiety)! I am by the way getting help for that. I hope that I will be out there in the world with other humans again – in due time of course, I can not divorce the hamster right away – I need to find him a good home!