Over and over and over again.

That’s how it feels. What feeling? The feeling of “I have something to blog about, but I have no idea how to get it down in print!”.

This is what usually happens when I go all silent, it’s not fun. There is always something inside of me that want’s out. 

The problem is limits, limits of not sharing enough (how I currently feel) and over-sharing (where I don’t want to end up). The limits of what I find private and what I don’t, what others consider private and I don’t.

I struggle a lot with this and a lot of other things, this is the reason why I go quiet. I feel it’s better to keep my moth shot than to blabber away.

I don’t have a theme or a topic. Even if balloons, popcorn and neon colors make me happy, I ofte don’t feel happy. I’m not unhappy – but I’m not happy.

I don’t feel like happy-funny blogging when I’m not feeling it and I don’t feel like writing sad melancolic posts when that might be the case.

How to find the balance? I have no solution at the moment, but I’m trying to find my way again. I want to be hope and honest about it, because I feel like silence is slowly killing the happiness of what I want to achieve. Not that I know what that would be, but it’s out there somewhere – that much I know.

There are so many ideas in my head, but I have to get them out. I have no idea how to! I also want to engage with others and have my own little blogosphere – but it’s hard and currently I feel like I’m struggeling, the lack of motivation. If you have any spare motivation – please send it my way.

I hope to break the silence more permenantly and to have schedual. <- that would BE GREAT!


13 thoughts on “Over and over and over again.

  1. Whenever I have an idea for a possible topic, I write it down on a list, even if I don’t want to write about it there and then. When I get stuck for something to write about, I look at my list. Quite a lot of the topics are, quite frankly, stupid. It doesn’t matter if there are lots of dud ones, though, as long as there are a few good ones in there too. 🙂

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  2. For a while I was determined to keep my subject matter light, and when my spirit dipped low I just couldn’t get the right words on paper because they didn’t ring true to what I was feeling. When I gave up trying to feel something I wasn’t and just honestly poured my heart out, it got a lot easier. Why shouldn’t my blog be a bit of a roller coaster…my life certainly is

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